excited
excited seems to be the word most frequently used to describe how i should feel right now. to be honest, i don’t know if i would use that word. sober, is more like it. i’m a day away from traveling, i’ve had almost every food fix i desired, there’s a huge pile of things in my room i need to pack- still, i wonder if i really signed up for this.
i say this because now is the time to act upon the convictions i’ve had in my heart to know Christ more. in last sunday’s sermon, Pastor James told us that in order to know Christ, you must also know his suffering. it’s in the times of hardship that you really begin to understand someone’s character. you must also be able to pray those dangerous prayers that will leave you vulnerable to brokenness and desperation for God to really understand what He has done. i feel like i just came out of a year of serious brokenness and my fear right now is, i just don’t know if i can do it again.
my dangerous prayer to God is to break my heart for what breaks His. great, heartbreak- i don’t know anyone that deals with this well. i’m literally walking into the front lines of the battlefield where there are demons that will shake my relationship with God. excited? not really. ready? will i ever be? one thing i am certain of, is that amidst the fear i carry and will carry throughout the trip, i know that there is nothing else i would rather be doing than building His kingdom. i want to be able to tell God at the end of my life all the things i did for Him. that’s exciting.
one day more! just to forewarn you, the succeeding posts will be much less calculated and thought out…i’m a bit rough around the edges, so i thank you in advance for your grace and mercy. i want my account to be really honest and i pray that it will make the gospel more tangible.
as requested, here is my flight info- so you know when i am leaving and coming back. both flights are domestic, since i will taking off internationally from newark. i would appreciate your prayers over my safety and protection while i am flying- i think i’m getting on 6 flights in the next two weeks. eek!
thank you for your prayers thus far. i will be posting prayer requests as i go. my strongest love language is words of affirmation, so i will be taking all the cards, emails and notes i’ve received with me along for the ride to remind me how loved i am. i am in gratitude to you.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
American Airlines # 1092
Los Angeles International (LAX) to Chicago O’Hare International (ORD)
Departure (LAX): March 17, 11:50 PM PDT (evening)
Arrival (ORD): March 18, 5:30 AM CDT (morning)
Thursday, March 18, 2010
American Airlines # 1704
Chicago O’Hare International (ORD) to Newark Liberty Int’l (EWR)
Departure (ORD): March 18, 6:35 AM CDT (morning)
Arrival (EWR): March 18, 9:30 AM EDT (morning)
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Sunday, May 23, 2010
American Airlines # 119
Newark Liberty Int’l (EWR) to Los Angeles International (LAX)
Departure (EWR): May 23, 7:30 PM EDT (evening)
Arrival (LAX): May 23, 10:50 PM PDT (evening)
