new year’s eve
last year, i made a new year resolution to learn how to play the cello. i honestly didn’t take any steps towards this goal and a year later, i realize it didnt mean as much to me as i had thought. although, i still love the sound of a cello… i always write down the memorable moments that have defined my walk with God to remember His faithfulness this year:
community group apprenticeship- i was stretched, challenged, and humbled by trying to lead a group of people towards christ. i am still discovering how conditional my love is and how much i need God’s grace to be at the forefront of my posture when it comes to building a community with very imperfect beings. valley vatos for life!!
Grad school rejection- I was completely devastated when I didn’t get into grad school this year for an mfa in photography. I really thought this was going to be my way of serving christ through my gifts and talents. But I realized how limited I was in my understanding of God and the desires He has for my life. He wanted me to submit and surrender my life fully to HIS plan and not mine. This was one of the hardest lessons to learn this year. But His promise also brings incredible peace. So, I am at peace with not going to grad school and pursuing an unknown route for my life.
ghana summer missions- changed my life. have you ever experienced how real the gospel becomes when God has your attention? i can only begin to tell you the convictions God has imprinted in my heart since this summer. i hope to share more recent developments of these convictions soon.
baptism- my heart has been eternally sealed to Jesus. i am a woman that is in love. i am a woman that is loved and forgiven. i am a woman who is eternally perfect in His eyes. my profession of love to Him was a long time coming and i am glad i was able to finally make a public declaration.
new year resolution theme: “however, i consider my life worth nothing to me, if only i may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me- the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.”
Acts 20:24
i recently bought new running shoes to help motivate me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. my brother is training for a marathon at the moment and asked me to join him for a jog. even before we left the house, i felt so discouraged because stretching my body was so painful. the jog was so tough to get through, i was really disappointed that i couldnt last a steady mile without wanting to take a break. as i thought about my spiritual walk up to now, i believe my walk has consisted of short stints of passion that always leave me exhausted and feeling a little more helpless than when i started. i would like to gain more endurance this year so that i can reach distances further than my own understanding and foresight.
God has used 2009 to prepare my heart for greater things to come. i believe i have caught glimpses of how His kingdom vision will be manifested in my life. i pray that i can be a witness to what He is already doing and contribute all that i am for His glory.
welcome 2010, i’ve been waiting for you.
