vision
i recently saw a film called, A Single Man, which follows a man who intends to commit suicide because he finds no point in living anymore. his last day is spent like any other, but experiences mundane moments with finality. he can’t help but lose himself and express the truth of that moment. everything gives him a clearer vision of why life is worth living. this epiphany comes too late however, and he ends up losing his life just when his vision became crystal clear.
lately, i’ve been distracted. it’s been all about me. i don’t remember that last time i asked God how He’s feeling or what He’s speaking into my life. i haven’t genuinely asked the Holy Spirit to move because, frankly, i’m scared what He’ll command. i haven’t been in a posture of full surrender; i just surrender what i want, when i want to. my actions have clouded my vision of God and living for the gospel.
i’m moving to new york in less than a week now. i can already see how many opportunities God’s going to give me to depend on Him. I’m moving with no apt., no job. just a few bags of luggage and faith. in these waiting periods of the unknown, i often think why it’s necessary to endure such anticipation. the isrealites waited three days before they could cross the jordan river to advance to canaan with the ark of the covenant. they watched the river grow more turbulent with each day. i bet they watched from afar, thinking about all the impossibilities of crossing that river- physically and mentally. sometimes, i believe God wants me to realize that it’s impossible to move without Him. He wants me to see what He’s capable of. again, He wants me to surrender all and proclaim He’s my everything.
i was reading a book that talks about the prophet Nehemiah as a spiritual leader. one of his greatest attributes is the ability to build up faith in people by redirecting focus away from “the impossible” toward the greatness of God. here’s my vision: to be a light in the impossible situations, because that’s what Jesus did.
watch out friends, He’s about to part the waters.
